Imagine feeling trapped in your own body?
It’s not easy to be transgender simply because they are different in society’s eyes. However, the harsh reality is if you fit the aesthetic that society deems “beautiful” then life is much easier.
People don’t usually question it unless they find out but in that case, it depends on the person and the way they view the world.
Not everyone is cruel, there are a lot of understanding and accepting people and as long as you are surrounded by a strong support system you can make it through life.
At 11 years old, Blake started questioning her gender but always knew by the age of 4 that she wasn’t like other kids.
She was different.
Blake was unhappy with her life before she transitioned. Her questioning about her gender identity wasn’t the only reason but it did play a big part. She spent an entire year thinking about her transitioning, really thought about the process and wondering if she could do it.
Gigi Gorgeous was the first transitioned female Blake had seen so she would watch her videos and watch it often around her parents.
Blake came out as gay at the age of 15, her parents already knew by then just by watching her.
Sadly, she was still feeling uncomfortable in her own body. She felt like “flamboyant gay” wasn’t for her, like there was something more to her that was trying to claw itself out.
She enjoyed all feminine things – the clothes, perfumes, makeup and the friendships. Although she is not entirely religious she always wondered, if God was up there, why did he make her this way?
…Why make life so hard for her?
…Why casts her into a world where people hate her because of who she is and who she’s attracted to?
Blake always wished she could be a girl, reverse time and come out the way she wanted. It’s a hard realisation to come to terms with and it’s difficult.
Transitioning is rather expensive and her biggest worry out of all is whether or not she’ll be able to afford the complete transition but also finally be at peace with herself.
Some men are born in their bodies, others have to fight for it.
Her mum didn’t accept the process at first, she didn’t like the idea of Blake physically changing her body. Blake’s step dad had no reaction towards the transition. On the other hand, Blake is not sure about what her biological father thinks of it till this day.
There are times when he will misgender her on purpose but it doesn’t bother her since she has nothing to do with him.
Blake started her transition at the age of 17.
Changing your gender is challenging especially adapting yourself to your new surroundings such as using the public toilets. Like Blake said, this is who she was meant to be therefore had no problem adjusting to her new life even though she did encounter little obstacles for example: going into the women’s toilets, being addressed with the proper pronouns and the rest of her siblings.
Work and school was never an issue for Blake since she had a few friends to support her throughout the whole process. Her managers also supported her and if she had any problems, they would stick by her side so she feels lucky to have this support. Like trying to make sure she’s not noticeable with the things we all go through such as: facial and body hair. Nothing has been perfect but she makes due.
For those who are confused, gender identity and sexuality are completely two different things.
Just because you change your gender, does not mean your sexuality changes along with it.
Blake was attracted to men before her transition therefore her attraction to men remains the same.
She is now 22, she is incredibly happy with where she is as an individual. She does not regret starting her transition and living her life the way she wants and can’t wait for more years to come.
My biggest thanks to Blake for sharing her wonderful story with you guys especially for those who are going through the same thing.
“ It’s who I was meant to be, there’s no doubt.”Blake